where am I?

I don’t mean that literally, obviously. I mean, most of the time I have a fair idea where I am. For example, right now I’m about 16 floors above Lonsdale street, hunched over a keyboard working on my square-eyes and ennui.

No, I was referring to more specific running stuff, like:

• How’s the training going?
• How am I feeling about the whole experience?
• How confident am I about the marathon? (which after all, is only a month away…. Less, holy shit)

The bullet points might give you the impression my thoughts are all organised and well thought through. Don’t be fooled. The questions might be organised, the answers I can’t vouch for.

On the plus side - I’m pretty damn confident I can run the distance. God knows I pretty much have done in training. That wasn’t the case in 05. I remember lying in bed sh*tting myself; convinced I’d have to be rescued from the side of Beach road in Elwood or something. I’m also pretty sure I have never been fitter in my life. I can confidently run well over 30k with no problems whatsoever.

On the down side - the recent hip problem did shake my confidence. I also can’t tell what’s going to happen on race day. There are just so many unknowns (weather, food, sleep, brain-fades, the “wall”). I also have this nagging feeling I haven’t done enough; that I’ve taken some of the training too easy.

Summary
The soul searching above was brought on because of the Monthly update - April on the Ausrun forum. This is what I wrote:

• April ks: 374.4
• YTD: 1350
• Injuries: strain to my left hip - a couple of sessions missed
• Excuses: see above
• Races: RFTK: 56:42
• Upcoming races: Williamstown Sri Chinmoy marathon
• Goals: see above

Running
13k this morning, including a desultory 15 minute tempo section. See what I mean? I did the training, but is it enough????